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one of my most favorite memories was 7-7-07, because that day I was with all my bestfriends. The nights were endless and the summer was amazing. I would give anything to go back to that day, the day where drama didn't matter, the day where we were all there for one another and the day we knew we never wanted to say goodbye. That day we went to a cabin, near darien lake. It didn't matter that anyone else was there, it mattered that it was the 8 of us. Me, Brett, Brittany, Meggie, Steph, Felish, Courtney and Kenz. That was the night that brittany's car broke down and 6 of us scattered into one little car. It did not matter that we did illegal moves on the thru-way. We cared about each other, and that was all. That night we shared our true feelings with eachother. We laughed, we cried, pretty much had the time of our lives. I don't know what happened to this moment. Somehow, through out college, the memory got blurred. And the best day of my life, everyone has forgotten.

x3DrinkUpx3 (1:02:39 PM): im naked

x0aLiSh3x (1:03:22 PM): hahahahahahahah.

x0aLiSh3x (1:04:06 PM): how did that exactly come up?'

x0aLiSh3x (1:04:08 PM): lol;

x3DrinkUpx3 (1:04:30 PM): i duno ... i just figured i should tell someone..and it was either you or john yungbluth'

x3DrinkUpx3 (1:04:34 PM): so....lol

this girl makes me laugh. She is absoutely hilarious and I don't know what I would do without her. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO WITHOUT HER. At times I take our friendship for granted. I admit, I have; I did. But I think I realized how much I really do care about her. I don't know what took me so long. She's got personality for days which I truly admire. I like the way that she carries herself, she is strong and intelligent. No matter what people say about her, she's always going to be the person SHE wants to be. She won't change herself to impress anyone. That's a quality everyone needs to take into consideration.

Just incase I haven't said it enough. Kenz, I really do love you. And I really do appericate you.

Some people say that they don't regret anything they've done because there is a reason why they ended up in that situation. I can't say that I don't regret what I've done. I want to apologize for all the hurtful words and the stupid lies. I want to make up for the shitty friend I was or maybe the awful person I've become. It is a great possibilty that it's too late for that. Hopefully one day I will express my feelings and tell the truth of how deeply sorry I am. Or maybe i'll just keep living my life regretting the things I've done. And never get the chance to tell you exactly how I feel.